Divine Guidance
As a child, I loved church. Not for doctrine or ritual, but because it was where I experienced the Angels. I could feel them. Sense their presence. They spoke to me in the silence. They spoke to me in the music. They spoke in the sunlight that streamed through the stained-glass windows.
Guidance came clearly, naturally, as knowing. And because I was a child, I shared this wisdom openly and without discernment. I believed everyone perceived the world the way I did—sensing beneath words, feeling beneath appearances, seeing what was moving quietly inside another person.
I received images, impressions, energetic imprints. I felt confused when someone's words did not match their inner truth. I learned quickly that people did not want these things reflected back to them. What felt like truth to me often felt threatening to others. The responses were anger, suspicion, withdrawal.
It did not feel safe for little me to know these things. And so, in my teenage years, I shut that perception down."
Lineage Pattern Evolution
But the empath never left. I remained highly attuned to the emotional worlds of others. Very early, I learned that if I adjusted myself—if I managed the emotional and energetic field around me—I could create calm. And calm meant safety.
Much later, I would understand that this outward attunement was a survival strategy, developed in response to an unpredictable environment. I came to believe it was my responsibility to ensure that those around me were happy, regulated, and at ease. Without realising it, I carried emotions that were not mine. I absorbed what was unspoken. I held what others could not.
The impact was profound. Energetically. Physically. Our bodies are not designed to carry the emotional weight of many.
This pattern was modelled to me through my beautiful mother—a deeply holy and heart-centred woman who carried the feelings of everyone around her. In her later years, that devotion showed itself in the body: severe arthritis, shoulder and hip replacements, heart troubles. She carried her body as someone who had held the weight of love on her shoulders for a lifetime.
It was a lineage wound, and it was ripe for evolution.
It would take many years and deep inner work for me to become conscious of this pattern. Through shadow work and radical self-responsibility, I began the process of individuation. I was well into my adulthood before I learned to remain aware, sensitive, and open, without being taken down by the energy of the world around me.
Around the year 2000, I attended an Angelic workshop, and something inside me burst open. It awakened what I had known as a child. I remembered. From that point, I consciously invited the Angelic frequency back into my life.
During my first pregnancy, in meditation, I experienced a clear visitation from the Archangel Michael. He held my baby and presented her to me. He told me the child's name. He told me he would walk with that child, and all my children, throughout their lifetime. In that moment, I knew he would never leave.
Each of my children carries this seal within their energy field. Archangel Michael as shield, the Sword and the Light of God. Protector of their Soul. My connection to the Angelic realm remained strong through the years. The Angels are a heart frequency. They come through love and carry the light of the Divine.
Sacred Space
By 2014, I was facilitating at retreats, with the Angelic realm deeply present. In 2015, I began hosting meditation circles in my home. The Angels taught me step by step how to create sacred space—a protected, pure field held in Divine love.
Other traditions might call this an energy wheel or medicine wheel. I simply knew it as sacred space. The Angels held it, guarded it and filled it with the frequency of unconditional love.
Through 2015 and 2016, these circles continued. Many profound insights and healings unfolded. Those who entered the space left more deeply connected to their hearts and inner guidance.
What I did not yet understand was this: My longing for the Angels was creating disembodiment.
The Angelic frequency lifted me above suffering, and this felt so freeing, so light. I was living predominantly through my upper energy centres—heart, throat, third eye, crown. Operating from these energy centres felt pure, expansive, close to the Angelic realm, close to the divine.
But I was not fully here. I was not embodied. I was using high frequency as refuge. As avoidance. As a method of spiritual bypassing.
The danger of False Light teachings
I had found myself trapped in the new age teaching of love and light. I wanted to experience only love. I could not allow myself to acknowledge anger, grief, fear, or rage. I believed that if I focused on love deeply enough, if I held humanity in light strongly enough, light and love would be the outcome.
But I was denying the reality of my lived experience. We are divine beings having a human life. And this human life exists in duality. Light and dark. Joy and suffering. Expansion and contraction.
In a duality universe, Integration is the path.
By refusing to acknowledge anything I judged as "negative," my body carried what my consciousness rejected. Emotion does not disappear when it is denied—it is stored. And my body began to speak. Loudly.
I needed to be present. To listen. To feel. To witness all the parts within me.
Between 2016 and 2017, I studied with a high-level teacher who guided me beyond the Angelic realms, into conscious connection with Ascended Masters and the feminine intelligence of the Goddess. This work opened my lower energy centres in deeper, more physical ways.
The teachings no longer lived only in meditation. They began to manifest in my everyday life. I became more embodied. More consciously aware. More willing to face what I had previously feared.
I began to understand that the inner shadow was not evil—only unconscious. And that within those rejected parts lived immense wisdom.
Embodiment through Presence
By 2018, it was time to acknowledge and integrate all parts of myself. I worked with an embodiment coach who taught me how to listen to the body's language—sensation, impulse, contraction, release. In ritual, I surrendered to my body and promised to listen.
And my body spoke—more clearly and loudly than ever before.
I had been living within a marriage that was dangerous to my wellbeing—physically, mentally, and spiritually. I had not been ready to see it. I wanted love at any cost.
The anger and rage I had denied erupted through my skin. My body burned. The agony undeniable.
The Angels withdrew. Not as punishment, but in Divine Intelligence. I needed to be here, in this human world."
Fully present in the reality of physical life—in pain, in rage. In terror, and in truth.
Through 2018 and 2019, my body descended into ill health as I began to allow myself to acknowledge the reality of my life situation.
For four years, I worked with a teacher who guided me into radical presence. I began the process of witnessing and transmuting deep trauma held within the body.
I learned to heal by listening deeply to the wisdom of my body. I wove together my Nursing knowledge with embodiment practices, nutrition, and deep cleansing protocols. In time, the physical and energetic layers of my being were cleared, cleansed, and healed.
I studied traditional tantra for three years. I meditated daily—not to escape—but to inhabit. These meditations were not about ascension. They were about listening, staying. Being with what is.
Sacred Creative Practice
During this time, I also discovered the process of Intentional Creativity, taught by Artist Shiloh Sophia. The journey began quietly, around 2017, and unfolded as a profound companion to the evolution of my soul.
Intentional creativity became a living practice of integration. I would begin by creating Sacred Space, the Divine energetic healing template, and my inner world would reveal its truth on the canvas.
As emotions, memories, sensations, and insights arose, I brought them directly into form. The canvas became the sacred space—the portal to enter and explore the inner worlds.
Wisdom came through the brush. My unconscious spoke through colour, symbol, movement, and texture. What could not yet be named found expression through image. Transmutation happened through the layers.
Liberation through radical acceptance of what Is
Through 2019 and into 2020, I no longer denied what my life was asking of me. Something had to change. So, I changed everything.
In 2022, I took my children, and we moved to a different part of the world. There, we settled. We found sovereignty. We found our way back to safety, to presence, to stability, to healing.
I continued to study. I continued to go within. I became trauma-informed. I learned to deeply hold space, for all parts of myself—and all parts of others.
I learned how to meet and process experiences that I once could not have imagined surviving. I learned to stay present with the deepest and darkest moments, without abandoning my Self, without leaving my body, without reaching for bypass.
I continued using creativity as a sacred practise for transformation, working through everything that arose on the canvas.
Something softened. Acceptance emerged. My heart opened in a new way. I learned what it means to find the sacred neutral. I learned radical self-acceptance. And from that came radical self-love.
Wisdom is meant to be shared
After many years of study, and integrating modalities and teachings from several esoteric traditions, I qualified as Teacher of Intentional Creativity. This profound and life changing wisdom is meant to be shared.
The path to Soul Connected Living is one of Liberation. Sometimes all that is needed is a set of healthy practices and guide to remind you of who you are.
You are divine essence. A Soul having a human experience.
When you live truly Soul Connected—when you are fully embodied, fully present, and anchored in both body and spirit—nothing can truly harm you. Life may still move you, challenge you, shape you, but it will not take you from your Self.
All that is required is trust. Trust that the Divine always has a plan, even when our human mind cannot grasp it. Trust in the divine intelligence of your Soul. Surrender into the alignment of Soul Connected Living.
And from there, everything unfolds in Divine Perfection.